I think since the new year started, quite a number of people around me have been asking me why I have been making quite drastic changes in my life.
In reality, I have always been quite a self-critical person. Some time last year, I began to re-evaluate the life I have and realised that it has gotten a little boring. It comprised mainly of work and school and did not have anything beyond that. Over the course of the last few years, I have also became quite contented to float along in life. I seemed to have lost a little bit of the motivation and drive.
I looked around me and wondered if this is who I am when I am not even 30 yet, what will I become in 10 or 20 years time. The projection shocked me and made me realise that I need to become a better person than who I am.
I think ultimately, it has to do with the need for a goal in life. For the first 25 years of my life, the goal was always to do well in my studies and find a decent job. I have completed my undergraduate studies for some time now, and allowed myself the luxury to slowly settle into working life. But ultimately, the lack of a central life goal frightens me.
I supposed eventually, I will find a goal that appeals to me. But in the meantime, my goal will simply to make myself a better person.
liyong